Sometimes the heart sees what’s invincible. And may be that is why it gets hard to breath. My heart is beating fast. I can feel my heart. Its heavy. I can feel my head. It is getting heavy. I can feel my pulse. My eyes are getting heavy too. I’m not sleepy. I wanna cry. But this place is crowded. I don’t want anyone to see me cry. Nothing is clear. I can’t see anymore. I feel like whatever dreams I have are shattered in pieces and scattered. I wish I could scream out loud. I wish I could explain myself. I wanna run away. I wanna hide. I wanna go to a place where no one can see me or find me. I wish I could talk my mind out.
I wonder if I would ever be happy. Days are running so fast and it scares me. I’m scared, so scared. I don’t know where this life is going to take me. Whenever I think of it, it gives me a heart attack. I don’t know if I could do it. I don’t know if I can take it anymore. I don’t know if I can protect me from this feeling. I want to wake up from this bad dream.